alright, let's do it the in-your-face way, shall we?

dear ang michelle,
i've always known you to be a headstrong and spiteful creature.
you read minds to your advantage, don't you?
no, don't get it wrong.
i don't despise you.
cos' darling when i see you, i see me.
it's something similar i see in myself last time.
and it's true when you said we are really special people.
it's a gift.
and all along i like your straightforward attitude.
in fact, i admire you for it.
that's why i love and fear you so much.
it's almost like a dangerous addiction.
it's practically doom for whoever that gets the wrong side of you.
i guess you're really mad at me huh.
for always helping her.
but all the while back then, she's was the reason for your happiness.
i wanted you to be happy.
but you see it as a betrayal.
it's all a contradiction i tell you.
once before, i lied to you, to help her.
i felt bad.
that was why this time round i did not.
i chose to let you to be the first to know.
although i know what you will become.
maybe i should have hide it and get blamed one more time.
just because i fucking care so much that you'll never imagine it to be.
and the rest is all up to you.

from yours truly.

scold me failed her
if only i'd held on tighter to her
pale white skin
that twisted and withered away from me, away from me

watch me lose her
it's almost like losing myself
give her my soul
and let them take somebody else
get away from me

watch me fault her
you're living like a disaster
she said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over, all over me

- evan

at 11/20/2006 01:38:00 AM.